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Day 285: Week 41 Weigh-in – Flying Solo

I haven’t posted here for a few weeks. As always, thank you to those that have been in touch to make sure that I am OK.

I am OK. In fact, I am much better than just OK.

The last few weeks have been eventful to say the least. In fact, without being overly melodramatic, the last few weeks have been life-changing and life-affirming and I will one day write more about them.

The main things to share include the fact that I am at peace with my single life. I am at peace with flying solo. I am at peace with being by myself. I am at peace with however my financial circumstances pan out after the courts next year because I will be just fine.

I am a survivor.

flying solo

The last few weeks have firmly stamped on my head that in spite of all the crap from this year, I am still an attractive woman who men find desirable. In a few years time when I have fully healed and rediscovered myself, I may pursue relationships.

And if I ever have a man in my life, he will be there to complement my life and not to complete it. No man will ever become my whole life. I am enough for myself.

My life can still be full of possibilities, full of joys, happiness, pleasures, adventures, new memories. I can make all these things happen for myself without needing a significant other.

work-in-progress

I am not saying that the last few weeks mean that I am fully recovered from the devastation of this year but I have certainly had a major turn.

I am still a work in progress.

Next week, I will see my amazing psychotherapist for yet another therapy session. I also have an appointment with my psychiatrist and I will probably stay on medication for the foreseeable future but that is fine. I am not ashamed of help.

no matter what

On the Cambridge diet front, for several reasons, I took a planned break from the diet but I am back on it 100% this week. I fully appreciate that every other diet that I have been on in the past with some degree of success gets to this stage, where my weight is in the 80s and fails because I become comfortable and complacent.

This time, I am determined to get to the end of a weight loss journey. I will do it.

Watch this space.

i may not be

Week Forty One’s Verdict: today’s weight 89.6 kg, week’s weight loss 5.5 kg (12.16 pounds); total weight loss; 34.8 kg; 76.6 pounds; 5 stones 6.7 pounds

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Day 265: Week 38 Weigh-In – Heal Thyself

This has been a week of ups and downs on the life front but on the diet front, I have stayed firmly in my zone. The week’s weight loss is recorded below.

I am not going to stop this diet until I hit a healthy weight.

I may stumble and fall, but I will get there some day.

As life continues to present challenges, I surround myself with words that encourage me to believe that I will not only survive this horrendous period of my life but I shall thrive.

I am a survivor and not a victim.

My life will be filled with joy, happiness and fulfilment and not strive, anger, bitterness and negativity.

I will at least keep trying my best.

So here are some of the little notes I leave for myself on the kitchen Island.

A little bit of self-love and self-healing. Not in a narcissistic way…hopefully.

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Week Thirty Eight’s Verdict: today’s weight 88.2 kg, week’s weight loss 0.7 kg (1.54 pounds); total weight loss; 36.2 kg; 79.6 pounds; 5 stones 9.8 pounds

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