Day 325 – Care to Lose a Stone in 10 Weeks?

I had CBT therapy today and my therapist was very surprised when I told her how much weight I’ve lost so far. I guess it is difficult for someone who sees you regularly to realise that you’ve grown smaller. Either that or I am just huge…and still huge!

I’m energised with my weight loss quest and highly motivated to keep going and get to goal without messing around…too much.

So this year, I have set myself two mini targets to aim for, as well as a revised final target to reach goal weight, all with realistic and achievable timeframes – if I stick to the plan.

No messing.

lets fucking do this

All weights are based on my upstairs weight, wearing my nightie and not the official Cambridge Diet weight downstairs wearing the now tattered clothes I’ve won for every single official weigh-in.

Given that I have never been anywhere near the weight that takes my BMI into a healthy range (63.8kg; 10 stones) there is a chance that I might hit a weight that is more realistic for my body long before then and feel comfortable enough to start maintenance. For example, Dukan Diet, a diet that I have done with some success in the past, has calculated my realistic ideal weight based on my weight history, to be around 74kg; 11 stone 9. I suspect my real ideal weight might be more the Dukan weight than BMI but that’s a decision I would be very happy and extremely lucky to get to.

I am not doing New Year resolutions this year – it’s just a recipe for setting oneself up for failure. Instead, I choose to just get on with things and to try my utmost best to ensure that whatever crap (or joy) is going on in my life does not affect my weight loss journey.

I’ve got to do this one thing for myself. Lose weight.

Mini-Target One – Lose a Stone in 10 Weeks

By any weight-loss programme, losing a stone in 10 weeks is a realistic goal and I will be kicking myself if I don’t make this weight loss target.

If I hit this mini goal, I will be just another stone from my BMI becoming “overweight”. I have not been anywhere near overweight since I was 18 years old.

Starting Weight: 89.6kg; 14 stone 1

Starting Date: Tuesday 5th January, 2016

Goal Weight: 83.2kg; 13 stone 1

Goal Date: Tuesday 15th March, 2016

Total Weight-loss: 6.4 kg; 1 stone

Weeks to Target: 10 weeks

Weekly Weight Loss to Hit Goal: 0.64kg; 1.4lbs

Mini-Target Two – Best Birthday Present Ever: Become Overweight!

Starting Weight: 89.9kg; 14 stone 2

Starting Date: Monday 4th January, 2016

Goal Weight: 76.6kg; 12 stone

Goal Date: Monday 23rd May, 2016 (two weeks after my 43rd birthday)

Total Weight-loss: 13.3kg; 2 stone 1

Weeks to Target: 20 weeks

Weekly Weight Loss to Hit Goal: 0.67kg; 1.5lbs

Goal Weight Target – Hit Healthy BMI and Be Slim by End of Summer!

Starting weight: 90.6kg; 14 stone 3

Starting Date: Sunday 3rd January, 2016

Goal Weight: 63.8kg; 10 stone

Goal Date: Friday 30th September

Total Weight-loss: 26.8kg; 4 stone 3 pounds

Weeks to Target: 38 weeks and 5 days

Weekly Weight Loss to Hit Goal: 0.69kg; 1.5lbs

Would you like to join me in losing 1 stone in 10 weeks?

If so, please drop a comment here or check out the contact page and send me a private email. We can keep each other motivated and more importantly, accountable regardless of what weight loss or healthy regime you are on.

You can visualise what you might look at your idea weight like I have done in this post using Model My Diet.

Good luck to all of us.

Let’s kick some (fat) arse.


Day 243: Week 35 Weigh-In – Slow and Steady Wins the Race – Another Mini Target Smashed!

Shit happens.

I am trying to move on with my life following the devastating and sudden end of my marriage and the incomprehensible and continuing acts of betrayals since then.
Sadly, it looks like I will be facing a protracted court case to disentangle myself from my scumbag ex. As it stands, I am looking at a final hearing by end of summer 2016, possibly later.

This week, I made some very hard decisions which I am optimistic will help me move on with my life in a positive and fulfilling manner.

I also made the firm decision to start living life again instead of waiting for the end of my divorce/financial settlements to live again.

Baby steps and a work in progress.

I believe in the power of positive thinking.


And as part of those tough but positive decisions, I have taken some bold, exciting but daunting steps which I might write about in coming weeks.

Shit happens and now I either deal with the shit or drown with the shit.

I choose to live.


This morning, sitting on the edge of the bath, I found this unusually painful and hard on my bum. It finally dawned on me that this is because there is less padding on my previously humongous padded bottom!

Now that’s a nice problem to have.


I have this week smashed the 5 1/2 stones loss. I am utterly thrilled.

Next mini target is 6 stones loss which will take me to a weight that I haven’t been since my 20s.

6 1/2 stones, that is another 12 pounds loss, will take me to a weight I haven’t been since I was a teenager.

This blows my mind more than chocolate ever did.

Week Thirty Five’s Verdict: today’s weight 88.7 kg, week’s weight loss 0.9 kg (1.98 pounds); total weight loss; 35.7 kg; 78.5 pounds; 5 stones 8.7 pounds


I’ve actually lost approximately 79 pounds but I preferred the axes to ninja stars…but here’s another picture dedicated to a particular reader who wrote that she likes the photos I post on my blog! xx



Day 165 – The Power of Positive Thinking

This has been a very busy week dealing with divorce crap.

It has also been busy in other ways getting bits and bobs done in my home instead of fuming at having to keep spending money when I have been 100% financially (and in every other ways), responsible for a house I only own half of.

My take is that I can carry on with my life and pay for repairs that add to my mental wellbeing, or I can suspend my life and stew with anger. I chose the former.

So, the electrician has been in, the plumber, the cleaner and I might even have the fence mended after my neighbour alerted me to a hidden section that had apparently been broken for nearly two years. Say what?

I have even started the seriously slow work of lovingly oiling the pergola and hard wood decking and restoring them to their beautiful, original colour which might take me the rest of the summer to complete. There I was rocking my Gucci sunglasses, sun hat, sunscreen, sun dress, staycation?

My back hurt like buggery after four hours oiling but I am extremely proud of myself. I don’t recognise the amazing, capable woman I am becoming…

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I have also started a gratitude book using a book my lovely friend Mandy gave me on my birthday in May. She wanted me to only write positive things in that book. I had only made two prior entries on my birthday and the day after…until now.

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When we are going through shitty times, it is very easy to forget all the great things and wonderful people that are still good in our lives.

It is easy to forget that we are still in a much better situation than a hell of a lot of people.

It is easy to forget that we still have a hell of a lot to be thankful to God, the universe or whatever we believe in.

This week, I have pledged that every single night before I go to bed, I will write down my gratitude list. Perhaps one day soon, I will share some of the items on those lists.

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Every night before I go to bed, I will also read my positive affirmations and visualise those affirmations as if they were all true. The sub-conscious mind is like a 5 year old and only understands the present and positive affirmations. It doesn’t understand the words “not”, “would”, “should” or “don’t”.

My affirmations are there to help me grow stronger every day. If this sounds way too new age, forgive me but desperate times call for desperate measures.

My affirmations will help me rebuild my dented self-esteem and appreciate that I am not merely rejected goods; I am beautiful, loveable and deserving of love, care, fidelity, loyalty and respect.

They will help me to keep making positive plans to move on with my life.

They will help me forget what was done to me, the anger, the unfairness that still keep me awake some nights (for I’m only human) and help me build the strength, both mentally and physically to start re-building my life in a positive manner.

Grief is funny business and I can’t predict how I will feel tomorrow or even in the next hour. I might be back to ranting about my circumstances and back to posting anger fuelled post.

But right now, this minute, I am thankful for the life I do have, the people in that life that give me joy and I am positive the future will get better.

I am slim.
I am beautiful.
I am confident.
I am lovable.
I am enough.
I meet challenges as they come.
I overcome adversity.
I rise to the occasion.
I am a survivor.
I have positive people in my life.
I am treated with care and respect by those I invite to be close to me.
I treat myself with care and respect because I am worth it.

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