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Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

It’s been a very long time since my last post.

I have been extremely busy in the last couple of months and perhaps I will write more about all that sometime in the New Year. All I can say for now, is that I am so very proud of myself, and the success of a brainwave, which has not only given me immense satisfaction but also some much needed income.

As I take stock of the year that I have had, forgive me if I abandon all modesty, and say that I am so incredibly proud of myself and all that I have achieved this year.

Time means that this is only a short post to say thank you for all the love and support I’ve had from all of you this year, on this blog, the countless private emails I have received, and in all the ways some of you have engaged with me.

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I also want to wish you all a wonderful Christmas and all the very best in the New Year.

For my Jewish readers, happy Hanukkah!

I will write more in the New Year but for now, I will bask in love, family, friendship and having a magical and happy Christmas.

Have a great time, whatever you’re doing and wherever you are.

Lots of love,

Belle xxx

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Day 623 – Thank You to Good Friends…We Are Yet to Meet.

I don’t care if it takes me a trillion days, a billion fails and a million restarts.

I owe it to myself and to every single person who reads this blog and who cares about my journey, to keep chipping away at my fat, until I reach goal.

So….I’m back on the diet wagon.

I want to say a massive thank you to all of you who have followed my journey and those of you who have become my friends on Facebook through this blog, and who have extended a real and genuine hand of friendship.

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Although we have not met face to face…yet, your friendship and support are tremendously important and hugely appreciated by me.

Let’s face it, you know my innermost thoughts, which 99% of people closest to me in the “real world”, whatever that is, are not privy to. 

You are all very important to me as real and virtual lives merge in our world.

The comment below on my Facebook, following my last post, from an incredible lady who I have not met…yet, but who I greatly admire and very much care about, like I do my closest “real life” friends, moved me more than I can express.

And so, I say, thank you.

“You are so brave! What a journey you’ve been on! I remember a year ago telling you it would get easier….and I stand by that….it does, but I too, after 8 years of being divorced received a letter from my ex last week…and it still hurts. In my experience the pain dulls, but it never leaves entirely.

But that discomfort mustn’t stop you moving forward with your life and pursuing your own happiness every moment of every day!

This may not be the outcome you’d have chosen but it is a new page, a clean sheet for you to put your mark on, and knowing you lovely one, it’ll be beautiful!!! Big Love xxxx”

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Day 458: Thank You All for the Inspiration

I chose to have a planned two week break from my diet (more on all that another time) but I am back, with renewed vigour and inspiration to get to the end of this journey. I restarted the diet on Sunday, as planned.

I read about other people on the Cambridge diet losing gazillion amounts of weight in no time at all.

My journey is different.

I have sort of taken the scenic view with the diet, with so much emotional turmoil and changes in my life, I am fine with the fact that my journey will be more of a marathon than a sprint but I will get to my destination, that much I am certain.

I promise myself and every single person that has supported this diary, that come what may, no matter whatever else is happening in my life or however long it takes me, I will not stop until I get to an ideal weight that is right for me. That is no excuse though to mess around on this diet.

The plan is to concentrate in the next 5 months, and as much as I can, stick to the diet 100% and hopefully, finally, get to the end of this journey. If it takes me more than 5 months, I will keep going, that timeframe is not set in stone.

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Which brings me to what I’d like to say with this post…

I have received a lot of love and support through this diary and those that have contacted me on private emails and Facebook. See Contact for details.

You write to tell me how my diary inspire you but this is the thing, you all inspire me right back. 

You inspire me to keep going with this diet knowing that I owe it not only to myself but to all those who have invested their time, energy and even emotions following my quest, to succeed.

Your support inspire me to keep going. I feel like I have a world full of strangers propping me up to stay on my diet and to keep going.

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I thank every one of you that follow this blog and in particular, those of you that take the time to share your thoughts. 

I wish to share a few comments.

This post will be endless if I share every single post that has warmed my heart but please know that your comments mean the world to me.

These are only a few to say thank you all for following my journey and inspiring me to keep going.

The kindness of strangers never cease to amaze me.

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D

MAY 3, 2016 AT 4:50 PM | EDIT

Hi! I just read your entire blog in a day and a half. Thank you so much for writing this. I identify wit so much of what you have written. I’m struggling with weight issues and am on day 1 of the cambridge diet. This is so inspirational. Thank you for taking us on your journey. I look foward to keeping up with this blog. All the best to you! by D

Moremi

OCTOBER 21, 2015 AT 11:35 AM | EDIT

I am so proud of you. Most women would have given up and lets the woes of life eat them up but you have persevered. I started my Cambridge diet today and someone like yourself truly inspires me. So girl, I suggest you continue this journey, pick yourself up, look fly as hell and find love all over again. AND ALWAYS REMEMBER A MAN WHO IS WORTH YOUR TEARS WOULD NEVER MAKE YOU CRY IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!

Sara C

MAY 14, 2016 AT 9:35 PM | EDIT

So, I suspect like many others, I happened upon your blogs when my usual forum support had gone a bit quiet and was looking for a bit of week 7 encouragement.
Instead I found myself reading your entire year’s worth of blogs, laughing, crying, gasping and sighing in turn. What a year you’ve had. And in spite of all the heartache you’ve stayed strong and achieved incredible weight loss. I’m literally in awe of you. Thank you for your thought provoking, heartbreaking and inspirational words.
Next time I’m feeling sorry for myself and craving toast, I’ll remind myself of your inner strength and determination.
Please keep blogging. I feel like I’ve found a new friend 😊😊

Kathia

MAY 14, 2016 AT 12:50 PM | EDIT

Congratulations! You are my inspiration. I recently had a baby and I gained some weight. So after 6 months I decided to start the cambridge diet. This is my first week and it is day 4, and I have lost 5.5lbs. It is hard but your blog will inspired me.
Thank You.

Livia

FEBRUARY 21, 2016 AT 7:28 PM | EDIT

You are a terrific writer and know how to totally engage your audience. I feel you and the drastic change to ur life. Hold on to the good memories and build better ones. Good luck.

Joanne

JANUARY 30, 2016 AT 8:27 PM | EDIT

Hi again…i was just googling first week of step 2 because on day 3 and 4 i was feeling awful, really weak and tired and dizzy and i wanted to see if it was normal and ur blog came up…it instantly gripped me like a really good book…u should actually write a book beacause ur an amazing writer! Im raging ive caught up to present day cause now ive nothin to read lol. I started at 11st 5lb on the 13th jan….so far ive lost 6lb and i want to b 9st 7lb but initially it was as an emergency as ive a trip to norway in 2 weeks and id gained 1st 5lb since august and didnt fit in anything! So get weighed again tues..fingers crossed for 3 more lb xx

Livia

FEBRUARY 7, 2016 AT 10:17 PM | EDIT

I love your blog. Your life is like a sad movie but yet you are living it and doing great. Stay positive always.

mich1975

JANUARY 22, 2016 AT 4:16 PM | EDIT

To go through what you’re going through and still not be giving up on a diet is beyond admirable- be gentle and kind to you, you’re weathering a ginormous storm. Which I have no doubt you’ll come out feeling stronger than ever. Your weightloss is an inspiration to me. I feel like coming right over and giving you the biggest hug ever. Keep on writing. For you, and selfishly for me. xxxxxx

Mycambridgedietsite

JANUARY 22, 2016 AT 10:34 PM | EDIT

Your success so far is amazing. I went to see this dietician once who was fantastic. She said to me that I had to remember that sometimes our body needs the comfort of the familiar when we are going through a particular period of stress and it is OK to eat those foods that bring you comfort and not feel guilty about it as long as you acknowledge it was for that point in time and you accept the impact and that you don’t let it influence you going forward. I know its easier said then done but I find it helps a little. Basically accept you needed it and don’t let guilt or disappointment derail you. Good luck I know its still a difficult time for you.

Livia

JANUARY 21, 2016 AT 11:25 PM | EDIT

Your story is such a beautiful one. In times of adversities God sends us helpers. You have lost the “love of your life”, but you have gained a lot more. You attract goodness because you are a good person. Your life is just beginning. Ehugs to the friend that stayed over, the young solicitor and others who made what could have been a bad day, okay. Keep forging ahead.

Jenxx

OCTOBER 21, 2015 AT 5:34 AM | EDIT

There will be sunshine and there will be rainbows hunny so stay focused on that.

Xx

Jane

OCTOBER 13, 2015 AT 2:05 PM | EDIT

Stumbled across your blog whilst looking for some CWP step 2 recipes. Sorry to hear of your marriage breakup earlier this year. I went through this 17 years ago when I was 37. After several years of struggling by, followed by a breakdown and a couple of years of seriously needed therapy I started to find ME! I am now almost 55, remarried to a wonderful guy (what I ever saw in the previous one I don’t know😉 ) I know myself and am very content, depsite being obese. I believe I’m now in a place to REALLY tackle my fat issues and wish you all the very best in your continuing weight loss and in healing the wounds that you are currently experiencing. Things really do get better, but you are the only one who can make that happen. Hang on in there girl! Warmest wishes x

Sandy

SEPTEMBER 17, 2015 AT 7:06 AM | EDIT

You are so brave.
I’m thinking of you.
Sending love and peace. Xx

Jen

SEPTEMBER 17, 2015 AT 12:56 PM | EDIT

So sorry to hear about your Mum. Hope she is recovering well

Your courage and resilliance to what is a horrid situation never ceases to amaze me. Look at the flowers and remember all the wonderful people that you have in your life. He will regret his decisions and she will live her life waiting for him to do the same to her

Stay strong

xx

Ani

SEPTEMBER 12, 2015 AT 7:39 AM | EDIT

You are that..a survivor and you will come out triumphant and stronger, a whole new person physically, mentally and emotionally. But your ex will still be that weak, coward, wimpy guy and you will look back and hit yourself for allowing him to get even a piece of you. He was just lucky you even loved him when he wasnt deserving of any. The thing is, he is the one who ran out of luck. Keep going, stay strong and beutiful.

Lekpa Wannabe

AUGUST 28, 2015 AT 8:23 PM | EDIT

This is such an amazing read. It’s clear to some of us that have followed your journey on this blog that you are so over your rat ex. You go girl! you deserve so much better than a cheating coward, fuck the divorce crap and just live life to the fullest

June

AUGUST 6, 2015 AT 9:36 AM | EDIT

Five years ago this was my life. Only I carried on with the food crutch so you are stronger than perhaps you realise. Just read this entire blog. Cried and laughed with you. Know you aren’t alone, know you are pushing others like me to be stronger (on the diet front in my case) and know it does (believe me I was the girl who used to ask my flatmate if we could sleep with our doors open because I thought I would die in the night from excessive crying or a bad panic attack. I had about three a night for best part of a year) it does…. Get better. Better than better. It becomes the best. You will find yourself in the best relationship ever …. One with yourself. X thanks for sharing your journey xx

Christine

JULY 6, 2015 AT 6:13 AM | EDIT

Brilliant x
I spent 5 years healing and getting to know me, I’m still learning 9 years on and MY heart comes first. I am in love with a man and it so different when you are truly loved back, but those single years are my foundation of loving me and I now know I’m a survivor and I’m stronger than I ever knew 😊 enjoy the next part of your life as you fall in love with yourself, sending heaps of blessings 💜

Fiona

JULY 3, 2015 AT 1:29 PM | EDIT

Well done hunni! So pleased to hear about your weight loss journey, you are doing really well especially through these tough times which shows what a strong cookie you are.

Hugs
Fiona
xx

Rose

JULY 3, 2015 AT 8:38 PM | EDIT

I can feel your pain love. But I just want you to remember to say something to yourself every time you find yourself being overwhelmed:

Say these powerful words to yourself and dwell on these words as you say it:

I thank whatever GODS may be
For my UNCONQUERABLE SOUL.
I AM THE MASTER OF MY FATE….
I AM THE CAPTAIN OF MY SOUL…..

It is time for you to rise out of this pain and misery, and transform yourself into a beautiful butterfly. Sometimes you have to go through the deepest pain to come out on the other end…glorious and unconquerable…Because YOU are the captain of your soul!

Sending you my hugs love….

Sally Jenkins

JULY 3, 2015 AT 2:14 PM | EDIT

You wow me! You are such an inspiration. I have been overweight most of my adult life. A typical yo-yo dieter, everything stimulates my appetite. I eat to celebrate happiness, eat to wipe away the tears! I have tried all sorts of diets. I am happy I discovered your site; you will be my inspiration

Fifeemcg

JUNE 12, 2015 AT 7:28 PM | EDIT

Keep holding your head high and fighting as you are. You are an amazing soul xxx

Mary

MAY 7, 2015 AT 6:52 PM | EDIT

what on earth to say….

if you want the rainbow you’ve gotta put up with the rain??? nah that’s a shit one….,

hang on……rethink

‘if life gives you lemons, make lemonade’???? oh dear that’s even worse

one more… I’ve got it….

there’s plenty more fish in the sea?

seriously…. you have permission to ‘web stab’ me!!!!!!

I of course don’t mean any of these things but hope I may have bought a tiny chink of light and possible teeny weeny smile.

Deep dark times have no words of comfort written. Keep being you, writing, sharing and letting us in and keep being you ❤️

Austinkahuna

MAY 7, 2015 AT 9:51 PM | EDIT

You will survive. And this period will suck. I know how you are feeling and appreciate the honesty and emotion that you convey within your words. Thank you for expressing yourself so wonderfully. One foot in front of the other, that helped me quite a lot. Aloha to you

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Thank you

Dear Random-person-from-the-internet,

Today is exactly three weeks since I started my Cambridge weight plan journey. Today is also exactly three weeks since my first blog entry recording my random thoughts.

I have chosen not to tell people in my life that I am on the Cambridge diet. The only people who know are my DH and my little sister, who has started the diet herself and is on Day 4. I am so proud of her. I have made that choice because I don’t want distractions, concerns, people’s opinions on what they think of the diet, especially as most of them would not have bothered to have educated themselves on it before commenting.

I also don’t want the negativity like the one friend that lost 10 stones in 8 months on the diet. Incidentally, during her time, all I heard were negative comments about the diet. I just don’t want to deal with anyone’s drama, anxieties, spend my time constantly reassuring others or deal with any negatively that distracts me from concentrating on the diet.

It is somewhat unfair to make the above general statement and I must qualify it. My mother and sisters are my biggest fans and will 100% support me if they know about the diet. I have announced the start of so many diets to them that there is a sense of not wishing to fail yet again about not telling them about this. I have chosen just do it, don’t just talk about it, let my new slim figure speak for itself.

There are also friends who will of course wholeheartedly support me without negativity and with time, perhaps I would invite these friends into this new world of mine.

When I started this journey, I felt that a diary would help me track my progress and stay motivated. It is doing just that.

This post is really to say that I am very thankful and appreciative of every single person that has chosen to read my random thoughts.

I am grateful for those who have subscribed to my blog by email or bloggers following and liking my posts.

I am thankful for those of you who have tagged me or written to say that they have shared my blog with other people.

I am extremely grateful to those who have not only read my blog but actually taken the time to drop me a line on two on comments, Facebook or emails – see Contact for details.

I can’t pretend to understand exactly how the internet or blogging works; nor do I understand how people find my blog nor how I have somehow managed to acquire readers from countries as diverse as the UK, USA, Australia, Qatar, Ireland, Nigeria, Canada and Zambia. It is a humbling feeling; our world truly is a global village.

I am always floored by the kindness of strangers. You have all been extremely kind to me.

To all of you reading this, I would like to extend a most sincere, heartfelt and a huge thank you for your support.

Belle x

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